Yesterday, my latest podcast episode launched.
Catch it here: Episode 31: Sense and Spirituality
My overall podcast explores topics around anxiety, as a follow on from my book: Tales of an Anxiety Warrior
Every month there's an audio episode (Solo) and a video episode (Video). Across the month I'm offering sponsorship slots for just £10 (Limited spaces left at this price, get in touch if interested!)
but this month, is a topic which is a chapter in my book. I expand a little bit, but that chapter was basically written in dedication to a man I'd met online in my local community who follows the "Ba H'ai" faith. He insisted he didn't try to convert me, but I believed otherwise.
I won't be converted to anything. I have my own sense of spirituality.
I learnt many things, as for a few years I was a professional note taker at the local university. I was stuck in that "zero hour contract" role, because I was too anxious to venture into the "real world" and that was the only way I could find a job which felt like I never had to leave the "safe" walls of the university I'd actually studied at.
One of the highlights of those learnings was Theology. I followed a student through the three years of his degree. I learnt through his chosen modules, about many different religions. However, the most fascinating module was the Psychology of Religion.
After a muddled young adultlife with no direction and high anxiety, these learnings were the start of working out who I was in the fundamental sense.
I've never been athesist, but since I was 18 I considered myself Agnostic. There's something out there for sure!
I've always been fascinated by the wonder of space and galaxies, but that was yet another thing I was bullied for at school. I hid my interests for many years due to bullies in all shapes and sizes.
It's not even the science, it's the colours, it's the artistic side of it all. That's why I had to find my dream galaxy wallpaper when I got my studio built in 2021. 2021 was the year I gained clarity on everything.
I don't need religion, but purpose in life is important. If you don't have a purpose, what's the point? If you don't know what your purpose is, then look at what you value most in life. A lot of people say it's for their kids.
I'm a mum myself, but my purpose isn't my kid. My purpose is me. I spent so much of my life hiding from what I liked just to try and fit in (Which was mostly in vain!) that at the age of 34, I decided enough was enough. I have clarity, I worked out why I want to live. I worked out my purpose and my passions!
Onwards and upwards!
4 years later, I'm successful as the Tropic Pianist Gamer. Author, podcaster, multi passionate extrodinaire!
My purpose is to be the best version of myself there is, because I owe it to my anxious younger self to make up for all those years I stayed hidden.
I've got some great plans for 2024, they start tomorrow!
Religion isn't key, but having faith and trusting the process is.
